A silent birthday again !

=( . . actually in my heart. . .i dont feel happy with the celebration 2day . . i wish for more as i can say . . =/ . .
but there is still a lot of wishes which make me content d . . also some frens accompany me to celebrate for me . .=) . .every year also wish to have a loved one . . accompany me to pass thru this special moments. . i was hoping LEMON would be the one . . to pass it with me this year .. but thing dont seem going well . .what can i say . . again passing this special moments again ...hehe. . .jokingly to say . . maybe is fated . . haha ! 2day accompany WINNEE for interview . . l0ls. . i dont mind waiting for her. . .and i got a great company. . kaka...CHLOE! thanks ya ! hehe .. . nice knowing you . . you are one great girl ! =) . . .

Winnee
WINNEE still the same giving me a very complicated d feeling . .but i still seem wanted to care for her .. no matter who she is . . she is just special . . =). . .happy that you get the job ! i really feel happy for you ya ! at the time b4 passing my bday . . i think about you . . is good if u could accompany me . .haha . . 2day actually i wanted to buy u HAPPY candy for u d . .eventhough if u didnt get the job. . as a motivation for ue. . ue for me would nvr change d ler . . you are special for me . . as what i mentioned to you last time. . .=)

LEMON
laimun . . u shud be the one accompany me for this very day. . and i would really hope for my bday time being spend to be with u . . but thing jus dont hope as seem it wanted to be . . mix feeling toward ue . . after breaking up with you . . regret. . . sad. . .hoping. . .i had made a plan for us . . .i was planning to charge for this plan . . but the commitment at last why should it be this weak . . .the bond we made for 3 months. . i was dissapointed for us. . and yet the most is myself. . .the key to lock someone . . it should be me. . .everyone look high upon us. . .i also put high hope on this relationship . . but by the time it ended. . . i dont really understand . . i dont understand at all . . but i had a belief. . since decision is made. . is done for that . . .i dunno whether i regretted or not . .i just dont know . . or like CHLOE said i just didnt enough . . didnt relationship suppose to be an easy thing . .? i am not a playboy . .and i lagi dont und . .why the relationship i in . . all for a short period only . . .haish. . .=(. . .but we sure spend some sweet times together . . all the best my special friend. .

My Birthday Coming Soon ! =)

My birthday coming soon ! hehe ! what will be the surprise or event ler? haha ! still waiting for it ! =)

Pump it up ! Dont you know you gotta pump it up ! =)

SUNDAY, JANUARY 3, 2010

S.U.R.P.R.I.S.E.

wahaha
Bad Chou Si Hum~Hng!

bUt
Still Luv Ya~ ♥

the day you went to KL for meet up . . =)

MONDAY, NOVEMBER 22, 2010

u tell me u r going to drink....in the middle of the nite...3am...
i worry i dunno where to find u...i round the lake and shoplot...
do u noe how dangerous is it....u riding the bike out in the middle of the nite?
how many time did i need to tell u?at last i waited u outside ur hse...
maybe u dunno...but i really had no choice...i can only do is waited u outside...
waiting u to come back...my worriness toward u is extreme...
i question myself...is this called stupid or care?
but i noe...if i dont did this...i cant get to sleep..
i will worry bout ue.....i didnt regret waiting u in a drizzling nite...
i waited ue until i saw u reach home and get into home...only i leave....
Please do really take care of urself...
i mai not be someone special to u anymore...
but....
please take care...wht u did tonite doesnt hurt me physically but hurt my inside...deeply.


The day when I knew the true feeling of helpless and speechless . . nothing to do but to worried . . but when saw you arrived back safely. . the true feeling of relieve and happiness inside me . . =) . . I still know how much you mean to me . . =)

THURSDAY, JANUARY 6, 2011

i dream of u last night ! in de dream i was crying, and u re there accompany me...

i read all of the posts u wrote again and again...

u are de only one who really cares and loves me,

tis had been a long time since i last teared.

but I'm sorry that i'm not de one who deserve u,

i thought with the way i treated u can makes u let go of me but now i know i'm wrong.

whenever i was down or emo, de one i think of is u, i noe u ll be there for me but i never reach out to u..

every messages u sent to me touched me each time,

but i got no choice other than reply u tat im fine, dont worry, and thank you...

I'm sorry for hurting u...

I'm sorry....

Every time when I view back our blog. . this is the only post I will wish to read back . . it mean a lot to me . .I will put a smile at it when I read back . . the meaning is there . . .=) 

So called So-So Days

Thinking of career ler now . . =) . . how does the interview goes . . but one thing i am happy that. . i could give all to jesus . . i feel there is someone i can hang on to . . i really did feel less burden even in facing interview .. facing some difficulties. . when i called upon his name. .there was like a shoulder which back beyond my back . and ask me to give it a try . . =) . . .he did also give me some hints which is the road to go for . . =) . . i show my gratitude to my beloved jesus ! =) . . i love you jesus . . =)

The Memories

 The time we spent together while we are still bond with each other. .
Relationship is tend to be have the feeling of loving and also the commitment in it. . .
I am sad and confuse when our relationship tend to end in the pace. .
Am I the one to blame ? putting hope in our relationship means a lot to me. .
Since it ended . . the only way is i walked my own road and never looked back toward our past . .
But for now is still hard for me to leave the place. .

The gift that you present to me . . facing it each day . . the sweetest and also the hardest memories to bring it down . . since you are running your own road with another beloved . .bring yourself wisely and remember to live for your own . . protect yourself. . that is what i truly hope . .
Deep in my heart leaving and making decision to let you go . . wasnt my decision if it wasnt my last resort. . jailed an empty body without it soul is meaningless to me . . i done my best in putting commitment in strenghten our relationship . . too bad i cant do more. . by the time you tell me that you didnt miss me anymore . . i re-valued myself . . and i m greatly dissappointed . . . =(












             
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